hi everyone

so i didn’t want to do this at all & i hate that i have to, but it’s been 8 months that i’ve really tried to stay afloat here & since i’ve got officially <$50 to my name now, i’m going to admit that i’m feeling scared. i really do not like to do this, but i know that over the past year people have expressed that they love me & want to help so i’m going to try to respect that.

i think anyone who has followed me knows that literally the entire past year from jan 1st on has been one nightmare after another & has at least a broad understanding of the situation that im in right now re: work + home + life + family + health & my lawsuit. so if anyone is able to donate to help me out right now, i would be super grateful — i know it’s right at the holidays which can be a hard time for everybody though, so please absolutely do not donate anything if you’re not in a situation to, or if you need the money for other things. you can rb this to share & thank you and sorry in advance to anyone who can help out.

also i really dont know how paypal privacy works so please let me know if im doxxing myself lol.

paypal here

sggk:

hi everyone

so i didn’t want to do this at all & i hate that i have to, but it’s been 8 months that i’ve really tried to stay afloat here & since i’ve got officially <$50 to my name now, i’m going to admit that i’m feeling scared. i really do not like to do this, but i know that over the past year people have expressed that they love me & want to help so i’m going to try to respect that.

i think anyone who has followed me knows that literally the entire past year from jan 1st on has been one nightmare after another & has at least a broad understanding of the situation that im in right now re: work + home + life + family + health & my lawsuit. so if anyone is able to donate to help me out right now, i would be super grateful — i know it’s right at the holidays which can be a hard time for everybody though, so please absolutely do not donate anything if you’re not in a situation to, or if you need the money for other things. you can rb this to share & thank you and sorry in advance to anyone who can help out.

also i really dont know how paypal privacy works so please let me know if im doxxing myself lol.

paypal here

Thank you beyond to everybody who has been able to help me. i cannot articulate how much this means to me. it is very difficult to do, but if nothing else this whole year has been a crash course in not only how to ask for help, but being humbled by how & that help is given. genuinely i wish i could express how much it means to feel like you need a lifeline and to be given one. Every single bit of my love.

GOODNIGHT !

i need to hit publish on the donation post but more importantly i need to . “Transform into an oyster”

saint-ivan:

charlottan:

charlottan:

once you meet someone with brown eyes its over

once you meet someone with brown eyes you are unequivocally fucked

striders:

old man sitting in the waiting room just randomly told someone “i’m from the ocean, you know”

Unparalleled response to “I don’t know how you can look yourself in the mirror” is “Well it’s a shiva so i guess i won’t have to” . Just in case any of you are ever in the same very specific situation as me

Wednesday i got a 20pg document from D’s lawyer cruelly assassinating my character denying my humanity & weaponizing what he knows about my father’s domestic violence against me as a child. Thursday my mom tried to kill herself and i had to go find her across town before she could do it and sleep in front of the door so she couldn’t leave again. Friday/Saturday i stayed up over 24hrs to watch my Zayde and he died while i held his hand and talked to him and then i had to wash & dress his body alone because nobody else felt able to. Sunday i organized the shiva house. Today i was asked by his sons to step in as a pallbearer based on my caretaking only for his “actual” grandchildren who were nowhere to be found in his dying year to publicly call me a blonde haired bimbo who has no right to carry their Zaide in front of their entire extended family at the funeral. They then stood up to make a surprise eulogy about how much their grandfather loved them only & how my siblings and i aren’t to be counted as grandchildren. At the cemetery they interrupted the rabbi’s prayers to demand that i not be allowed to shovel dirt onto the coffin as a last mitzvah given that i’m not a blood relation. All of this usually would not bother me however i think it has been an usually trying week even for me and although they’re right that he didn’t love me, i did take care of him all year as he died when they wouldn’t even call to check on him and so their reasoning seems just a little bit unwarranted . ANYWAY it’s so unfair that i’m the only one not allowed to die here

My mom tried to kill herself today. I can’t handle this world.

i’m like sobbing in the middle of toronto i hate this stupid city